I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter
|"I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter"|
|Genre(s)||Military science fiction|
|Published in||Clarkesworld Magazine|
|Publication date||9 January 2020|
"I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter" is a military science fiction short story by Isabel Fall, published on 9 January 2020 in Clarkesworld Magazine. The story relates the experience of Barb, a woman whose gender has been reassigned to "attack helicopter" so as to make her a better pilot. It is a finalist for the 2021 Hugo Award, under the title "Helicopter Story".
The story's original title is taken from an Internet meme used to disparage transgender people. Some read the story as transphobic or as trolling, and at Fall's request, Clarkesworld withdrew the story after she — a transgender woman — was harassed because of it. This caused a discussion among writers and critics about the merits of art that some perceive as hurtful.
Some time in the near future, the United States is fighting a war against the "Pear Mesa Budget Committee", a local AI government that emerged from an environmental and medical catastrophe on the Gulf Coast. The story is told from the perspective of Barb (a call sign, not "Barbara"), formerly called Seo Ji Hee. She consented to "tactical-role gender reassignment" by the U.S. Army, neuromedically reassigning Barb's gender identity to "attack helicopter" to make her a better helicopter pilot – warfare is now part of Barb's gender role, much as wearing skirts would be part of a woman's. Barb states that as soon as gender was neurologically understood enough to be artificially manipulated, the military adopted it as a new resource.
The story interlaces scenes from the war, in which Barb and their gunner and partner, Axis, bomb a high school and escape from an enemy aircraft, with recollections of Barb's previous life as a woman, and reflections about her altered sexuality: the acts of flying, of controlled violence, are now also sexual acts between Barb and Axis. As they fly home, Barb consoles Axis, who struggles with their reassigned gender, considering that Axis' uncertainty and defiance of their assignment may reflect a "new queerness" as necessary as intentional instability is to combat aircraft.
The phrase "I sexually identify as an attack helicopter" is a transphobic Internet meme, typically used, according to The Guardian, "to parody the evolving gender spectrum." The phrase originated as a copypasta on the Internet forum Reddit, which spread to other forums such as 4chan, where it was used (peaking in 2015) to mock transgender people. A 2020 Australian study identified those who identified their gender as "attack helicopter" in online surveys as belonging to "incel" and "troll" subpopulations, and described them, on average, as "single Caucasian males, high school educated, with average to low incomes, and some degree of non-heterosexual attraction".
Isabel Fall's story of the same title appeared on 9 January 2020 in the January issue (no. 160) of Clarkesworld Magazine. The accompanying biographical note read: "Isabel Fall was born in 1988". The story provoked "vehement" responses, according to Wired. Many readers appreciated the story, including the authors Carmen Maria Machado and Chuck Tingle. But there were also many loud detractors, many of whom were social justice activists and queer people. These readers objected to the use of an offensive meme as the title, and suspected that the story agreed with the meme's transphobia, or was an exercise in trolling.
The editor of Clarkesworld, Neil Clarke, removed the story from the online magazine's website a few days later. According to Clarke's initial note, the withdrawal was made at the author's request. In a later statement, Clarke explained that he had removed the story after a "barrage of attacks" on Fall, "for her own personal safety and health". He wrote that Fall was a trans woman, but had not been out as such at the time of publication, and used an intentionally short biography and "negligible" Internet presence. According to Clarke, the story was not a hoax, and Fall was not a Neo-Nazi (as some had assumed because "88" is a Neo-Nazi code). He wrote that the story was an attempt by Fall to "take away some of the power of that very hurtful meme" by subverting it. Clarke wrote that the story had been subject to many revisions and it had been reviewed by trans sensitivity readers, but he apologized "to those who were hurt by the story or the ensuing storms".
Rocket Stack Rank favorably reviewed the story, noting that the author's transparent narration allowed her to effectively convey to cisgender people "a bit about what it means to be trans (...) in a very different way than anything I've ever seen before." File 770 collected a number of reactions from science fiction writers and fans, some of which read the story as transphobic, while others appreciated it and deplored its removal.
One of the story's critics, Arinn Dembo, the acting president of SF Canada, wrote that "this reads like it was written by a straight white dude who doesn't really get gender theory or transition & has no right to invoke transphobic dog whistles for profit". After the story's removal, Dembo stood by her critique, saying that "a lot of people might have been spared a lot of mental anguish" if a statement about Fall's identity and intentions had been provided. The writer N. K. Jemisin commented: "Plenty of trans and [non-binary] folks have expressed themselves on the matter and their viewpoints should be centered. But if anyone needs to hear it, I'm glad the story was taken down by its author." Jemisin, who later wrote that she had not read the story, also commented, "Not all art is good art. Sometimes art causes harm. And granted that marginalized creators end up held to a higher standard than others, which is shit, but... that's [because] we know what that harm feels like. Artists should strive to do no (more of this) harm."
Other writers regretted the story's removal and the attacks on its writer: Robby Soave, a senior editor at Reason, called the story's removal an example of "cancel culture". Emily VanDerWerff of Vox wrote: "Art should embrace our weakness, our shame, and our doubt, too. To insist otherwise is its own kind of prejudice." Similarly, Conor Friedersdorf at The Atlantic wrote: "The controversy over 'Attack Helicopter' is another case study suggesting that rejecting 'art's [sic] for art's sake' in favor of 'art for justice's sake' doesn't necessarily yield more justice. It may help no one, harm many, and impede the ability of artists to circulate work that makes us think, feel, grapple, empathize, and learn." And at The Outline, Gretchen Felker-Martin criticized fans for believing that art should communicate moral lessons and that "minorities in fiction must be represented in a uniformly positive light", noting that censorship of controversial stories "constitute a rejection of life’s intrinsic complexity". Attacking stories such as Fall's just because some readers reacted with hurt to it, she wrote, blocked a necessary outlet for marginalized artists and represented "a retreat into the black and white moral absolutism of adolescence, or theocracy". Doris V. Sutherland commented that while it is normal for fiction to receive negative responses, the removal of the story from Clarkesworld created new problems by suggesting censorship is an acceptable solution.
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In a lengthy statement, editor Neil Clarke clarified that the story was not a hoax, and Fall had 'honestly and very personally wanted to take away some of the power of that very hurtful meme', which is intended to parody the evolving gender spectrum.
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