--Ramondt (talk) 14:01, 28 September 2013 (UTC)--Ramondt (talk) 14:01, 28 September 2013 (UTC)--Ramondt (talk) 14:01, 28 September 2013 (UTC)Good afternoon beautiful people all over the world! My name is Ramondt, I live in South Africa and I am an intersexed person. I have been in a clinic for depression the past two weeks, and something very good came from my stay there. It was decided, by myself, my psychiatrist as well as my psychologist that I needed to have testosterone injections bi-monthly - 200mg of Depot Testosterone as well as HDEA tabs daily. The reason for my suicidal tendencies and depression became crystal cleaR - I ALSO WANTED A BEARD LIKE OTHER MEN, I WANTED TO BE SEEN AS A MAN AND NOT AS A "WHAT IS THAT?" PERSON. I may be short, (5Ft5) be referred to by my mom as a woman, but there was never anything feminine about me. I dress like a man, walk and act like a man. I have only one tendency that may be female - debatable, of course - and that is sensitivity to others' feelings. I received a series of estrogen injections when I was 18 because I wanted to make my parents happy, which took away my facial hair, I developed breasts and my voice became more feminine. But it was the end of my life. I was a destroyed, wiped out speck of a person, fitting in nowhere. I am now 46 years old, have had one testosterone injection so far, having the other one the coming Monday, AND I CANNOT WAIT FOR MY BEARD TO START GROWING PROPERLY! MY VOICE ALREADY IS DEEPER, BUT LIKE THAT OF A 15-YEAR OLD BOY GOING THROUGH PUBERTY ALL OVER AGAIN. What I really need to know from someone who has been throught this experience is this: How long do I have to wait for full beardgrowth, broader shoulders and all those things? I have always had an adam's apple, no ovaries or uterus. I only have the external organs of both sexes, but the male side rules. Please answer me asap. I have also become extremely aggressive while I used to be an "I am so sorry I am alive" type, pleasing others instead of being more assertive. How long will I be so aggressive? I am on tranquilizers and loads of other tablets to calm me down, but I still react aggressive without meaning to. Anyone's help on this will be welcomed.